The verse lyrics were actually written several years ago, after I was talking to a psychology student about the paradoxes that can exist in people’s internal thinking. As I decided to paint a few vignettes about different life scenarios, the use of haiku poetry seemed somehow fitting, as well an interesting lyrical and melodic challenge. My co-writer at the time wrote a chorus that departed from the abstract nature of the verses and became a catchy, melodic explanation of the song.

For my album release, I decided to scrap the original chorus and create another that encapsulated the essential feeling of the verses.

I also completely rewrote the music from the earlier version.  I looked once again to Trent Reznor for inspiration, in using a sparse, simple piano melody and various white and pink noise effects. The minimalist instrumentation also suggested I kept the chord structure quite simple, without too much movement.

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Bad touches feel good
Shame of pleasure brings silence
I am only five

Pity my poor life
Won’t someone take care of me
Help this adult child

Hurting. Choosing. Learning.

A slave to the high
Reduce my pain for me please
An addict less harm

Raise my family
Through my love and words and fists
Love this or leave it

Hurting. Choosing. Learning.